So, I did it! Sometimes I still do not believe that I actually pulled that trigger, since it has been my dream for a few years. Of course, it took a lot of courage and time to process all the doubts and overcome all my fears and finally open myself up to me in the first place.
Why did I decide to sign up for a boudoir shoot? Well, I guess it is impossible to answer this question with a single sentence, but one thing I know for sure, it was always about me… I know some girls do it to surprise their husbands, boyfriends or friends, but this was never the case for me. Time spent with my sons and husband is always the most precious to me and no matter what we do together, I totally love it all – from playing board games to traveling to new places. But the feeling of losing my inner self completely to my job, and endless chores and responsibilities was chasing me for years. I guess I gave all my love to others, but at the same time forgot how to love myself not only for what I’ve done, but simply for my reflection in the mirror.
From the moment I had this idea of a photoshoot in my head, I knew exactly the only photographer I would go to – Oksana. I’ve been a secret admirer of her work for years. During those years I learned that she is a true artist, who knows how to reveal elegance, femininity and natural beauty, while also highlighting your unique personality and style.
The preparation for the photoshoot started for me a few months before the actual date and was as precious as the shoot itself. It was the first and very important part of the entire experience, or as I like to call it “therapy”. We started communicating with Oksana while choosing outfits. I would send her pics of what I thought I want to wear, and she would give me her kind feedback on it.
On the day of the photoshoot, I was super nervous, almost turned my car back. And all those thoughts kept buzzing in my head:
what are you doing?
Why do you need it?
What would others think about you?
When I stepped into the studio, the first impression I got was welcoming and cozy.. After a few minutes of talking to Oksana and her lovely make-up pro, Laura, my heartbeat finally began to slow down and eventually I felt like I’ve known those ladies forever. I honestly confessed that I never wear make-up, high heels or dresses on a day-to-day basis and trust them completely on choosing my hair style and make-up. At the beginning of the session, I still felt quite awkward, but that feeling would lessen with each click of Oksana’s camera. She complimented every single part of my body and eventually convinced me that I am beautiful, stunning and gorgeous! The poses were becoming more open, but to my big surprise, I was becoming more serene and self-assured. I never liked my lips, ears and knees, but at that moment I finally dared to leave all my imperfections behind and simply enjoyed every single moment of my photoshoot feeling seductive, elegant, sexy, and charming!
I remember the next day my bestie at work said: “You look different today! Even the look in your eyes is different! ” And I completely agreed with her. After my phototherapy I was new to me as well. I just know for sure that I started loving myself more! Now, looking in the mirror is not a torture, it brings me pleasure!
The photo reveal session exceeded my highest expectations. I could not believe that this absolutely stunning and confident woman in the pictures was me! The feeling of elation and self admiration hasn’t let go of me long after I’ve left the studio. It was the best thing that happened to me since… ok, let me stop here. I feel so happy and true as if another part of me has finally been revealed. I cannot stop looking at the photos and I am pretty sure that I will be back again!
